I don’t think you will ever process
how offset you place me constantly
but I got a box of cigs & I burnt a cd
I was wondering if you would possibly
take a ride with me
in my car my parents bought for me
it wasn’t cheap, but it’s still shitty
We can go get lost
until we wanna sleep
then I’ll drive you home
if you kiss my cheek
so I know you’re sweet
cause the weeks don’t always melt to one so easily
when I’m in between my sheets breathing, thinking it’ll help me sleep,
can’t look beneath these eyelids
pry them open, cry yourself silently until you hit the climax of emotion where you realize reality never dies so there’s no reason to defy it.
I’ll agree with the explanation you provided completely without hesitance, discreetly because I knew it all along.
But I still sing along to songs I hate when it’s late at night & I haven’t ate & I’m bout to break because even fake ass niggas make me happy when I’m sad because I won’t let nothing make me mad, any time. Any day. I’m always glad even if it’s not adamant across my face.
I want a bitch to wear black
& light my cigs when I’m drunk
but hides the pack when I’m sober
& knows a sack if it’s bunk
and never asks to sleep over
cause she knows that we’re too young
for dumb commitments and closure
but still somehow I provoke her
sometimes we even take naps
but only after I poke her…
when she leaves we give daps
don’t come back till she older
because I’m only a passage
to crack your heart & grow colder
so baby fasten your laces
we gon’ take laps to my basement,
until we’re gasping for feeling but nothing’s lasting.
can’t see the ass that you’re shakin
I think my mind has gone vacant.
So baby match who you’re embracing
with a lacking of color,
wear black. down, over & under
to contrast with each other,
& the brightness we mutter.
to pull the fibers of my verse
and pull the covers to cover what her other lovers saw,
cause I brought the monster out her claws
and now she just keeps pawing on her lovers arms.
killed myself, under a tree, turn to moss, right where she sleep.
paw at me until I bleed.
turn me into faded dreams.